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I had a refill visit this past week.
Now, aside from the fact that the nurse practioner who saw me had no idea that I have fibromyalgia and when she suggested that I’m like a group of other people who are seen with the same issues and that I probably have fibromyalgia, she said to me- “I’ll refill your scripts, but you’re going to have to learn to live with this”.
My eyeballs rolled back so far, I saw my frontal lobe.
Who the fuck wants to accept to just live in pain or extreme fatigue??
I sure as fuck don’t.
While I understand that doctors and nurses are only human, that they can only do so much- please don’t tell me that I have to learn to live with it. It’s condescending and lazy. I’m also very stubborn and don’t feel like getting used to it.
When I got home from the appointment, I immediately grabbed my iPad and jumped on Pinterest. (Total Pinterest addict). I was thinking about different approaches to deal with with the pain and fatigue. Yoga? Walking? Essential oils? Drink concoctions? Rare herbs? Pet therapy? Cut out gluten? Vitamin shots? And on and on.
After a much enjoyed time of searching, reading, and pinning, I decided to start with what I put in my body. I’ve been so quick to just rely on pills that the doctors give me, that it never occurred to me that my body wasn’t designed to function properly on muscle relaxers, pain killers, anti-inflammatories, nausea relief, anti-depressants, anti-anxiety, lyrica, and anything else they thought I should try.
Now, some of those do come in handy. But for the most part I feel like my brain is slowly disintegrating because of all the chemicals altering it. Instead, I’ve decided to try a more “natural” approach. By natural I mean, I’m still going to take Vicodin and muscle relaxers when or if I need them. Everything else is on a temporary hiatus until I decide otherwise.
Now that I covered the pill part, I haven’t had any alcohol in 5 weeks, (another idea for getting my body back), I can move on to the type of nutrition my body needs to survive and repair itself.
So it’s back to Pinterest to begin learning what foods I can benefit from. And then start eating them. I’ll be sure to share a few recipes on here!